I imagine there are some people who read yesterday’s blog entry and thought, “Oh, come on, grow a thicker skin, you’re being way too sensitive.”
Well, you are right. I AM way too sensitive and this condition has a name, it’s called being empathic. I just learned about it, myself, yesterday. I am so grateful there is a word for what I have been living with my whole life.
From Vocabulary.com – Empaths are highly attuned to other people’s moods, good and bad. They feel everything, sometimes to an extreme. They take on negativity such as anger or anxiety which is exhausting. If they are around peace and love, their bodies take these on and flourish.
Rather than being a “woo-woo” Psychic thing, empathy actually has a scientific grounding – Mirror Neurons. Researchers at the Netherlands Institute for Neuroscience (NIN) in Amsterdam have identified that the ability to feel the pain of others has to do with “mirror neurons” in the anterior cingulate cortex . From imaging studies of human brains, it was already clear that a region called the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC), which is active during the experience of pain, can also become active when observing pain in others.
It has been theorized that empaths may have more or hyper-active Mirror Neurons.
Conversely, narcissists and psychopaths at the extreme opposite side of the scale have little or no measurable Mirror Neuron activity.
So, I drew this diagram in my sketch book this morning to illustrate how I am interpreting what has happened to me and what is now causing me to heal.
The Noise is the unrelenting, never ending stream of news media, politics, and negativity that pervades the internet, social media and TV. I have a hunch that this also contributed to something else I’ve been experiencing – “Brain Fog” – Brain fog is the inability to have a sharp memory or to lack a sharp focus. You just really feel like you’re not yourself and you’re unable to think clearly.
For me – it was also an actual noise in my mind – a low static buzz that became so “habituated and normal” for me that I unconsciously tuned it out. And it was not until it was recently REMOVED that I realised it had been there all along.
I recognised this new silence yesterday, after having spent a day with The Noise turned completely off and removed from my life. I heard the silence – I felt it – it felt so good, it felt so exquisitely peaceful.
Later on I stepped out into my backyard while letting the dog out, and I was taken aback by the feeling of the sun on my skin and breathing the fresh, crisp air – it was as if I had not REALLY FELT these sensations in such a very long time. It felt like a homecoming, it felt exhilarating.
By turning OFF The Noise I believe I’ve allowed the positive energy and light of the Universe to fully reach me once again. I further believe that it has been so very long since I felt this positive energy directly that it really feels even more impactful to me on every level. Like someone dying of thirst tasting water again.
I now look forward to feeling a little bit better every day on this new path towards healing, growing stronger and creatively flourishing.
Until next time …